Hm. Dusty.

A year.

It's actually been over a year, I suppose, since I abandoned what seemed like a good idea at the time. Make a website, write on it a lot, and give the public at large a chance to read my work, because odds are high that I'll never quite make it as a published author of fictions. The deck is stacked, so to speak, and I'm not sure I have that special quality of being able to keep trying no matter what that writers seem to need in order to actually become published.

That's not an admission of defeat, mind you. I still plan to be a Famous Author, just like every other bright eyed kid who grows up thinking that books are awesome. But I need practice. Lots of it. And more than that, I need my practice to be public, because that's the only way to know if I'm on the right track or not. I certainly am not objective enough to know that kind of thing just by looking at it. I have written stories that I was convinced were fantastic, only to find out that nobody else seemed to think that. I have written stories that I was convinced were absolute shit, only to find people appreciating them more than I thought they ever would, or could.

And there has been in the back of my brain a constant pressure to get back on the horse, to create things again, because I haven't created things in such a long time.  I'm sure it's been nearly a month, and nothing fictional I've created has been a matter of public record (or if it is, it's been hidden so that only I know I wrote it) for far longer than that.  But now, with the advent of another great leap into the unknown drawing ever closer (17 days, and less by the time I go to bed tonight), I thought it was as good of a time as any to kickstart this thing.

So look at the old stuff, if you like.  I'm actually proud of it, these days.  Not because it's good; some of it is, but some of it isn't.  No, I'm proud of it because when I actually updated this site, I experimented.  I wrote poetry—poetry, for gods' sake!—and I showed it to people out of some almost mad desire to let the world see it, just in case someone would like it.  It's time that I got back some of that mad bravado that even assumed people read this thing, enjoyed this thing.  Starting with this, and working my way on from here.